Earth is just the middle plain, hell the first as we leave hell we take with us the worst of our qualities and lives and live here on earth in a perpetual state of humanity, stuck in limbo until we die where we finally leave all our hatred and sin behind in a pile at the end of the Earth smoldering till Armageddon where finally we reach the gates of the third plain of heaven. Heaven is not the final plain. From heaven we are born again into the world and live life with our angers left waiting till the end of days circling and steaming and finally after humanities cycle of hatred, sin and negative energies builds up and finally out-weighs that of Hell - there is where the balance changes and we begin to slide to the new pits of Hell and armageddon. Where once stood the Gates of Heaven now stand the Gates of Hell. Yet there is hope because the balance is a cycle and we are in the middle.....

It strange when you sit there thinking about human nature as you find your thinking will come round in circles. Hope and religion are again the same thing seem to come round in circles and thought of as the same thing. As a race I fear that it is in our nature to have a terrible fear of loneliness and in that being alone in the world. I like to paint a picture, a lone star spinning in orbit, absorbed within itself and its axis of rotation. Then years later another star finds itself being pulled into the gravitatioal field and again only orbiting itself. More years and another star appears again they all orbit themselfs but also each other in a weird birds-eye line dance. Weaving in and out of each others paths and so affecting then next star, hookinng to each others pull and the onto the next star. Round and round in huge galaxy size circle. More stars and more currents of persuation and influence.Now zoom out and we see this effect is happening all over the place eddies and galaxys are forming and dancing around each other with stars breaking off and floating free only to pull or be pulled. A constant stream. I like to paint this image to help picture humaity and our fears, understanding and dreams. Each star is a human absorbed inside of their own orbit only to find that no matter how far out they are everything they do effects and is effected by everything else, galaxys forming ad breaking, eddies of influece, chance, course ad effect. A miriad of things to far and wide for me to grasp coherently without babbeling in an effort to explain. Instead look at the picture and dream, let your mind sink into the huge expanse of life.

It seems to me that all thru your life people try to impose restrictions, limits and constraints on every aspect of your life and ambitions. I personally feel this is completely and utterly wrong and will constantly rebel against this in any form. Why limit yourself when theres enougth people out there doing it for you? Why say you can't do it? instead of Why Not?

Life is built on hope and dreams, religion, politics and anything that has "Power" is all about hope and dreams, believe and faith.

Everything goes round and round but its all hopes and dreams, love and life everything. So never stop dreaming or hoping because if you work hard enougth and try hard enougth everything will work out. Just don't give up.

Ok so I was surfing Myspace today whilst listening to Kerrang and thought (FUCKING DIALUP) Im on broadband but how difficuolt would it be to surf the web and get anyhitng done today without broadband what with www2 ajax and CRM sites we would have no chance

Oh yeah I remember I said I was going to start moving some old blogs over to the dark side oh well that went out the window I may do it in the future but heres a link for anyone whos interested in hearing me rant about old ladies

http://underwaterspiderman.spaces.live.com/

So when was the last time I actually blogged or come to think of it when did I last bother to update my website, well it seems like that is today. I've uploaded a new video and, well thats about it really I might have put up some stories and things since I last updated the site but things happen and you find you dont have time or cant be bothered or to be honest you just dont have anything to say, I finally gave in and created a MySpace www.myspace.com/erreallytall but i have shamelessly used it as a way to plug www.towler.tk and add random MySpace Whores, now I know that aint a nice way to put it by myspace surfing is boring and all you see is the same girls ion the same posses, the whole I can hold a camera at arms length and try to look hot. Well I can hold a camera at arms length whilst pointing at a ball ball in the dark and take a picture of my reflection damn you. God im in a bad mood today, i have been for a while actually I kinda go up and down but Muh W/E I only decided to Blog because I found myself on google as usual and putting in a couple of search terms brought me to my Login page for this blog script I have installed so I thought fuck it w/e lets go on there, expect to see a lot of stuff going up shortly, I know i have said that a lot lately but I mean it this time. Oh and to all those who I have taken out my anger and hurt on I am truly sorry you dont deserve it thank you for being good friends :) anytreee nuth it nuth Im of to go play some computer games n text grace probally or something (Shifty dog Eyes)

Its so I can check if im gay or not...everyday lol

4 things make me happy

Food ( preferably biscuits, sweets i can suck or chew, or a cheese/tuna mayo sandwhich)

A good book (scifi/fiction/fantasy)

A hot drink (coffee/Sweet Tea/hot orage or lemon juice with honey)

Music (Indy or rock/ or old school rock/ect)

hint Hint........

It's not that I don't like old ladies, and I don't generalise them all as the same, althou I am sure that to a majority we are all yobs.

The other day I was riding my bike down the rode and i saw an old lady walking in front of me so I slowed down and went to the side of the road. I saw the lady move towards the other side of the road and I went to go around her, when she walked again to my side and I had to brake sharply.
The old lady then said:
"I shouldn't be saying sorry to you"
"?huh? I didn't say anything"
"You should be saying sorry to me"
"Excuse me, but you walked in front of me"
"Well you shouldn't be behind me?"

Ok well lets think, I was trying to get in front of you. Oh dear oh dear oh dear. Welll I guess thats Old ladies 1, Youth Yobs 0.

To the pitch!

If some ignorant fool calls you a goth do you cry in the corner a slit your wrists or is it just time for another hand written poem in the dark. I really don't know how anyone could confuse a goth and an Emo, I mean one cries more than the other. Ugh.

OMFG they were amazing. What a f-ing weekend, first Kates prom, then after party then chillis. WOW. Shame on you for not being there is all I can say

Soon I will swoop down from the sky with wings of black and ridign what could only be known as a small child to land graciously in a suit of dining and to proceed with a preposterous dance involving me and a young lady at a ball like event only to notice at the last moment that my shoes are indeed untied and now I am screwed. Whoops. But ill take photo's so look out eeeek